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Born 1941, Tokyo, Hayao Miyazaki was a child when the bombs were dropped and Japan collapsed. He once told a story about being haunted by a childhood memory. When his family tried to escape the situation in their truck, a mother and child approached them, asking for help, but they were denied entry into the truck. It has been said before that Miyazaki’s iconic protagonists so often seem to be sincere attempts to write characters who have the strength to do what he could not back then: to tell his parents, no, stop, to demand they help the mother and child instead of leaving them.
His mother was diagnosed with a form of tuberculosis when he was 6, so his childhood was defined by “bombed-out cities” and a hospitalized mother. Miyazaki is later recorded saying “I want to stay grumpy, that’s who i am, i want to get lost in my thoughts, that’s not socially acceptable so I plaster a smile on my face. Everyone feels like that sometimes, why would I smile when I’m like that.”, my heart aches, as I know so well how it feels to say those words and simultaneously believe them sincerely and despise their naivety. When a childhood is disrupted so intensely, the mind can get stuck in a loop of feeling that feeling happiness is disrespectful to the tragedy. For example, Miyazaki was shown an animation of a dead body contorting and twisting around on the floor in a way that implied it was supposed to be comedic, and immediately Miyazaki becomes very serious and says, and I paraphrase here, “You know what I think of this? You do not have any respect for pain, or for people suffering”.